hmmm....seeing the light at the end of the tunnel

Its been a very long time since i have blogged. I never have time. I have been going strong. Nick has been gone almost 11 months. We are now on the count down, whoohoo!!. Has hard as this deployment has been, I have turned a new leaf.

I am done with taking care of people. I am done of always being there, and when I need a friend or some support, people are too busy. Or better yet make out to be like I am demanding too much.

We spent a month and half with my inlaws. That was the best decision I made. The kids really got to bond with family. They got to expierience, Cooper Campout and Grandma's famous 4th of July parties, this year was a County Western theme. We got to see lots of Hannah and Abby. Baby cousin Brooklynn decided to come to the world a day after we left. I knew it, so knew it, but we can't wait to meet her.

Well the kids have started School. Cameron is a Big 2nd grader. The girls got into Headstart, they go to school a full day. They even get to ride the bus like their big brother. They LOVE LOVE it. They have blossomed so much. They love to paint and the sandbox, lol. The program is the best i have ever seen, it puts the private school programs to SHAME. Other preschool programs dont come even close to this. From brushing their teeth, to eating breakfast and lunch in a family style setting including the teacher. They learn to set the table, to serve themselves and are taught thru creative play curriculum. This is just the tip of the iceberg. When riding in the bus they are seat belted in, they are signed into the classroom, meaning the bus driver turns off the bus and walks them with the assistant to the classroom and sign them in. Its what they call a hand to hand policy. At the bus stop, if someone differrent is at the bus stop, they will make you show your id and if you arent on the list, they are not getting your kid. And that whole call in buisness doesnt fly. LOVE IT. They are very careful and caring. Same when picking them up in the morning, if you arent on the list, you can't put the child on the bus and they will follow up. You dont call and let them know the kids arent attending school. THey will call you and make sure everything is ok. Go a few days and you dont answer the phone or call, they will come to your house. Not only are they interested in the childs education, but the well being of them and their families. DOnt know if i can say it enough, BUT I LOVE IT!!!

Now to me, I must say I am refreshed. I am finding that in the last few years I change for the acceptance of people. Because, who i was, was too harsh, too happy, too loud or whatever. Well, i have refound my true self. And wont loose it again. I am happier, stronger, smarter, and a better person. I started going to the gym...... I am going to get fit. I will loose wieght no doubt, but the right way. I will be healthier, and stronger. Anyone can loose weight....but not the right way. I was to be toned and healthy lungs. Plus its helped my energy level so much, and I need it, i have the 2 oldest in gymnastics and Sydney is in her 2nd year of dance. We are over there 3 times a week, lol, I am beginning to be known, lol.

I am scrapping again, and ENJOYING IT!!!! No competition, no critisism or right or wrong. I dont feel like I am being judged or that its a chore. LOVING IT. And I am reembracing my photography. LIttle by Little..... seem to be finding my groove on my own. I hadnt realize that there were a huge weight holding me back, that I have since had lifted and its done me a world of a difference. And I promise you, it will stay that way. I only have a few friends, that i can count on one hand and I like it that way. I have everything I need.

Well, i have some picking up to do and then some creating before Ben and I go get his sisters...

Happy Thursday